There will be no Literature NEA Fellowships for self, unless they dream up a post-humous award. But for what?
This is self’s 6th or 7th NEA rejection. She thinks she began applying in 1991, after her first book, Ginseng and Other Tales From Manila, was published by Calyx Press. There was a period of about a decade when self’s confidence was so low that she didn’t even try. Then, when Niece G enrolled at Stanford, she urged self to keep applying. Since Niece G’s forceful intervention, self has applied three times. At some point, it starts feeling really, really . . . draining and exhausting and humiliating and all of that. It’s a bear to master the application program, and of all things, during this last round, she was contacted by an NEA staffer to say that her application was incomplete and she had 24 hours to send in her supporting materials. What? She checked and double-checked and made sure she submitted everything well before the deadline. She began sweating bullets and spent an entire day in a state of high nervous anxiety.
This year’s awardees include eight from California (which self thinks is the most number of fellowships awarded to any state). The next state with the most number of awardees is New York, with five.
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No One Story acceptance, after XX tries — this is embarrassing. Shhhh!
She still loves One Story, and keeps up her subscription.
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The phone rings: it’s a 202 area code! Has self won something? She picks up. A computer says: Do you need dental care? Did you know that . . .
Of course self needs dental care! Her teeth are so bad, she’s still paying her dentist $300/month for some crowns, even though she hasn’t been in to see her dentist in a year. At this rate, she’ll finally get her “balance owed” down to “0” sometime in the spring of 2014.
Ah well, ah well.
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Did dear blog readers know that they can obtain one of Stella Kalaw’s fantastic prints through Fraction Magazine, on sale through Dec. 31?
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What about the Typhoon Haiyan victims in the Philippines? Self decided to look at The Huffington Post. The most recent post is dated a month ago. It’s about climate change. It’s well worth spending a couple of hours reading through each post. There is a mosaic of perspectives including from the Global Fund for Women in Menlo Park (They donated $500, which is a drop in the bucket, but hey, let’s not look a gift horse in the mouth)
Gerry Ruiz, a photographer who lived in Tacloban, has a Facebook page. Follow the photographs. There is a definite arc of hope (not to downplay the extent of the devastation, of course).
Stay tuned, dear blog readers. Stay tuned.